Thank you for reading this and for your compassion. The questions that you ask are the very toughest and ones that I ask myself daily.

The primary reason that I am still here is to continue earning money to support my loved ones. I know that is not a great reason for me, but I am glad when I can help them. In terms of discovering, I am likely done with that, as well as feeling alive or happy again. Those days are gone for me.

I do like writing and I walk a lot, about 8 miles per day this year, which takes my mind off of my depression for a bit.

Thank you again for sending supportive thoughts and prayers. It takes a truly kind person to share those thoughts with someone they do not know.